I do not believe that introversion is a real personality trait

The number of people who will tell you they are introverts is astonishing. You can talk to the most dynamic, engaging person in the world–someone with thousands of friends, who goes to parties every night–and he’ll tell you, “Oh, I actually find it hard to talk to people. And I usually prefer to be alone. I’m kind of an introvert.”

The truth is, everyone sometimes finds it hard to talk to people and everyone sometimes wants to be alone. The charmer who hops effortlessly from party to party is a myth: even within the maelstrom, there is awkwardness and loneliness.

When you read online about introversion and extroversion, it will focus on “energy.” Interacting with people imparts energy to introverts and drains energy from extroverts. But, in my life, there’s pretty much no activity that gives me energy. I wake up with a certain amount of it. Then I run down throughout the day until I finally fall asleep. All activity costs effort. Some things cost less than others (TV costs less than reading; going hungry costs more than eating), but nothing happens automatically.

If I didn’t do things just because they “drained energy” from me, then I would never do anything other than sleep.

That’s why the concept of introversion rang true to me for so long. I was like, “Wow, that dinner party really wore me out. I never want to talk to anyone again.” Because the truth was that social interaction did drain me more than most activities. The problem was that I never figured out why it was so draining.

It’s just like how some people find swimming really tiring…because they have a terrible technique that dissipates all their kinetic energy. If they had better form, swimming would become much less tiring (though it would never cease to require some effort, of course).

The reason I was drained by social interaction was because I was really bad at it.

I required huge amounts of alcohol to talk to strangers…so much alcohol that even though I met many people, I was never sure how it happened. And since social interaction was such a black box (input alcohol, output human connection), when I was sober, I was just as clueless as ever. Whenever I went to a party or gathering that was largely filled with people I didn’t know, I’d lurk on the fringes or disappear to smoke cigarettes by myself (I told myself I was “recharging”). And when I’d come home after a gathering, I’d feel so exhausted. I’d sit at home and tell myself that I disliked other people…that their conversation was so shallow and they were so plastic and what was the point of small talk anyway and that all I needed were a few close friends because who needs a horde of fake, surface-level acquaintances anyway?

If you’d asked me then, I’d probably have said that I was an introvert.

I mean, people make this distinction between people who are shy and who want to be social, and the “real” introverts. But I definitely thought I was one of the real ones. I enjoyed spending time by myself. To this day, I have no problem with not seeing another human being for a day and generally feel few pangs of acute loneliness when I am by myself. And being around people was very exhausting for me. I dreaded it, and I frequently cancelled or minimized my social engagements by telling myself, “Oh, I just need to be myself today.”

But then I stopped drinking, and, by and by, I made a very concerted effort to learn how to talk to people. I won’t say that I am a dynamo of wit and charm. In fact, part of the learning process involved letting go of this idea that social interaction involves holding forth and entertaining other people. But I do pretty well. I can sometimes talk to strangers (a thing that few people, every very charismatic people, are truly good at doing) and am pretty good at talking to casual acquaintances.

And, surprise, I enjoy social situations much more than I ever did before. I am much less likely to need to go off by myself to “recharge.” But nothing happened to my personality. I still feel pretty much the same inside. I just learned a few really simple things that smooth over social interactions and then I consciously practiced them until they became easier (though they’re still not quite second nature).

I was telling a friend about this, and she was like, “But some people just know how to do all these things. Some people just know how to start conversations and keep them going. Some people just know what to say…”

Well, yeah, but so what? It’s the same process as anything. A kid becomes a pro basketball player because when he was eight years old, he happened to be a little better than everyone on the team, so the coach gave him more playing time, which lead to him getting more practice, which led to him improving faster than everyone else, which lead to him becoming the star of the next team, and so on. A tiny initial difference in skills is translated, over twenty years, into a huge final difference.

The same is true with social skills. Kids who are just a bit friendlier in grade school acquire more friends, gain more confidence, practice their social skills more, etc, etc, until they turn into adults who are seen as “extroverted.”*

But social interaction isn’t supposed to come about as a result of good skills. It’s supposed to arise as a spontaneous connection: souls calling out to each other in sympathy. The result is that we essentialize social outcomes (“Oh, I find it hard to talk to people because I’m an introvert”) rather than looking at them as things we can improve (“Oh, I find it hard to talk to people because I never know what to say when there’s a lull in the conversation. Why don’t I just sit down right now and think of five things to say, so I’ll always have them ready…”)

I know that people will read this and say, “Oh, Rahul’s experience is not my experience. I’m a real introvert.” And that’s absolutely fine. Actually, it’s shockingly presumptuous for me to say that I don’t believe in peoples’ self-analysis of their own personality traits and desires.

And believe me, if you came up to me and said that you were an introvert, I would never disagree with you or ask you to change. So let’s take questions of identity and leave them to one side. People can continue to self-describe as introverts if they want to, and if they’re really satisfied with how they are, then that’s great. But when people come up to me and say, “Oh, I wish I was the kind of person who could talk to people easily” or “I wish I was the kind of person who could make lots of friends” then I’m like…well…you can be.

*Although if you talk to really charming people, you’d be surprised at how often they’ve put some amount of conscious study into developing their charm

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  1. Helen

    Rahul, I want to able to talk to people easily and be able to make lots of friends. Can you teach me the steps you took to become better at social interaction?

    1. R. H. Kanakia

      I don’t know! Maybe? We’ll discuss when I am back in town!

      1. Helen

        But that’s exactly what I want to know. Not just that I _can_ become better, but _how_ I can become better.

        1. R. H. Kanakia

          Yeah, but the problem is inside your own head, so you’re the one who has to fix it. I don’t know if my techniques will work for you. However, I will send you my seventeen rules.

  2. Ben Godby

    WHOA. I’ve made a timely discovery of this post. For once, I may have something useful to contribute here.

    I’m reading “Quiet” by Susain Cain at the moment, which is basically a book about all the research done on introversion and extroversion. I’ve also done a lot of personality tests for my MBA. It’s pretty real, as in, biologically hardcoded: introverts are “high reactive” and extroverts are “low reactive.” Introverted babies scream more because – if I may be colloquial – shit is freaking them out. Extroverted babies actually crave more stimulation because their amygdala (“reptile brain”) is less active. There are a bunch of personality traits associated with one and the other type of “-vert.”

    Cain’s book is interesting in particular because she examines the “extrovert ideal” that is extant in Western society, and compares it to the more introverted idealized types in, for example, Confucian heritages. America is the most extroverted country in the world: the social ideal is loudness and sociability rather than studiousness, wisdom, etc.

    Also, I’m not sure if you just made a typo above, but, typically, introverts “recharge” by withdrawing into themselves and extroverts “recharge” by going out to the world (the opposite of what you wrote). This is because high reactives are extremely sensitive to stimuli and low reactives need MORE stimuli to keep going. I know that this is the case for me: I am not shy or anti-social (traits that are not directly related to introversion), but I get exhausted at parties and business meetings and need time to “decompress” afterwards. I actually really enjoy social interaction, I just can’t take a lot of it.

    And there are so many more interesting things about introversion and extroversion and how these types of people typically act! Obviously, these traits fall on a spectrum, but I know you like non-fiction and therefore I COMMAND THEE TO READ “QUIET: THE POWER OF INTROVERTS IN A WORLD THAT CAN’T STOP TALKING” BY SUSAN CAIN (2012). You can also watch her TED talk, but the book is better (because she’s an introvert, get it?).

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