As I think I mentioned last year, December 20th, 2003 was the day when I completed (and submitted) my first short story. As such, today marks the end of my eighth year of writing.
Last year, I surpassed every writing-related benchmark of my life, except for two (most words in one day and most words in one month). Today’s blog post was going to be about how I’ve surpassed last year in every benchmark except the one which is perhaps the most important: quality of sales. As of yesterday, I hadn’t yet made a sale that exceeded last June’s sale to Clarkesworld in goodness.
I mean, Nature and Daily Science Fiction are great markets, but (rightly or wrongly) they don’t receive any critical attention. My Clarkesworld story got more reviews and notice than anything else I’d ever published in my life.
Furthermore, I hadn’t yet sold a story that I’d written this year. With the exception of one Nature story, all of this year’s sales were written last summer. I’d started to worry that maybe my stories were getting worse.
The anxiety was getting pretty heavy, and it made me realize that no sale is ever really going to satisfy me. Even if I did sell stories to all the big magazines, I’d immediately start worrying about how none of them had been chosen for Year’s Best anthologies or been nominated for awards. Even if I do sell my novel, its sales will inevitably disappoint me. Even if I do get awards, I’ll worry about the years when I don’t get them. A writer is always going to find something to worry about.
It was a lot to think about, and it made me start to do some pretty heavy thinking about how I was going to build some psychological defenses against this kind of disappointment
But then I got an acceptance from Clarkesworld yesterday. My story “What Everyone Remembers” will appear in the January 2012 issue. And this story is recent. I wrote it in July of this year. I’ve had four near-misses with Clarkesworld this year (stories held for 20+ days and then rejected) as well as ten or so less encouraging rejections, so it’s good to hit with them again.
The only bad part about this is that now I have to wait six months before I can submit again to this really good magazine that’s demonstrated that it really likes my stories.
In other news, I also sent out my first novel query today. The novel is completely and totally done. Nothing on hell or earth is going to make me revise it further. The query might still need some polishing (ugh, and the synopsis still needs to be written). But otherwise, this is the end of my journey with this novel. I’m happy to have finished and submitted a novel, even if I am dreading the dozens of rejections that will inevitably arrive.
Finally, this year in writing has been really good. I’m attaching a table below that shows my yearly progress (with the caveat that my word-count includes words spent on revising, so it self-consistent but not consistent with other peoples’ yearly totals, i.e. my 2011 total of 500,000 really does represent more than three times more effort for me as 2009’s total of 150,000, but it does not necessarily represent twice as much effort as your total of, say, 250,000).
Total |
2011* |
2010 |
2009 |
2008 |
2007 |
2006 |
2005 |
2004 |
|
Total Words |
1,202,950 |
497,750 |
279,600 |
146,000 |
44,000 |
44,400 |
61,250 |
62,750 |
67,200 |
Rejections |
750 |
177 |
252 |
321 |
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Stories Sold (Pro Sales) |
19 (8) |
7 (5) |
3 (2) |
0 |
1 (1) |
1 |
4 |
1 |
2 |
Stories Revised** |
— |
41 |
14 |
— |
— |
— |
— |
— |
— |
Stories Completed |
149 |
37 |
27 |
17 |
10 |
2 |
19 |
14 |
23 |
Queries Sent |
1 |
1 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
Novels Submitted |
1 |
1 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
Novels Written |
2.5 |
1 |
0.75 |
0.5 |
0 |
0 |
0 |
0.25 |
0 |
Days Spent Writing |
922 |
294 |
251 |
136 |
60 |
48 |
51 |
52 |
30 |
Avg. Words on Above Days |
1,262 |
1,693 |
1,114 |
1,074 |
733 |
925 |
1,201 |
1,207 |
918 |
% of Days Writing |
34.48% |
83.29% |
68.77% |
37.26% |
16.39% |
13.15% |
13.97% |
14.25% |
23.08% |
Words per Day |
412 |
1,410 |
766 |
400 |
120 |
122 |
168 |
172 |
184 |
Goal Weeks (Weeks w/ >5000 words) |
103/382=0.27 |
44 |
40 |
10 |
1 |
2 |
1 |
2 |
3 |
*Statistics are through 12/19/2012; I hope to hit 500,000 before the year is done.
**Prior to 2010, I didn’t track when I finished revising a story and submitted it for the first time.
Additionally, the best writing day of my life was June 7th of this year (the day I finished the first draft of my novel), with 11,450 words. My best writing week was the week beginning on May 30th, when I wrote 53,050 words (the first 5/7ths of my novel).
I made seven short story sales this year: two each to Daily SF and Nature, and one each to Clarkesworld, Brain Harvest, and Polluto. Of these, four have been published.
I also completed my first novel revision this year (which I will talk more about tomorrow).
In case it’s not obvious, my new productivity this year is largely a result of me moving to California and having to put less time into my job (I work long-distance now). I think that last year I pretty much hit the limit of what I could do with a full-time office job (I was writing about 2 hours a day). Now, I still have many 2-hour writing days, but I also have 4, 5, and 6 hour days (which I never had before).
I think the best things to come out of this year were two writing techniques that I’ve already discussed: one-week novel writing and iterative short story writing. One week novel writing is great because it only takes a week…and then you have a novel.
But iterative short story writing is what has really revolutionized my writing. Because I rewrite each story 3-5 times now, I’ve stopped writing a number of different kinds of bad stories. The most notable of these is the story that sort of slinks along for 3,000 words and then quickly wraps up in a way that’s both abrupt and predictable. Now, I take the time to figure out what my story is actually about. I don’t settle for the first ending (or beginning) that occurs to me.
This has resulted in a new way of thinking about writing difficulties. Now, when I am having trouble with a story, I don’t spend time trying to think it through (which was often a waste of time, since stories don’t come from the thinking parts of the brain). Instead, I just write my way through it. My cognitive input in stories is limited to discrimination: it’s just me saying, over and over again, “This doesn’t work,” until I finally write something that does work.
I don’t think that the resulting stories are a quantum leap better than the ones that I was writing before (although these stories are never as awful as the worst of what I wrote before). However, I do think that I had reached a plateau with my old technique. My new technique will eventually result in stories that are much better than anything the old technique could’ve produced.
My concern for most of this year was structure. In the upcoming year, I think I want to focus more on tone and language. My language feels too thin and flat to me. When I love some other author’s story, I usually love it from the very first sentence, because that sentence distills down everything that is good about the story. I don’t think that people get that feeling very often from my own stories. I want each of my stories to construct its own dreamscape and to describe that dreamscape using its own rhetoric.